Monday, April 25, 2016


I haven't posted in forever. Don't all of my posts start this way? I haven't posted since January. Life has been pretty boring. I mean should I really blog about getting a new vacuum? Or a self-cleaning litter box? I don't know if those are blog worthy ;)

I can blog about the newest addition to my family! My brother and sister-in-law welcomed a baby boy at the end of January! They live here in San Diego, and I am lucky enough to babysit every Wednesday. I've been watching him since he was 9 weeks old and it has really given me an idea what taking care of a newborn entails! It's a lot more work than I thought it would be!! He keeps me super busy. Sometimes I don't even have time to eat! I always bring books and my iPad thinking I will have free time... it never happens. It has definitely been a good experience watching him.

My mom just left from visiting this past week. She came to meet her new grand baby. It was really nice spending time with family, but also exhausting. Even though we weren't necessarily packed with activities, we were on the go and did not spend much time at my house. I was not disappointed when work offered me the day off today. In fact, it was a relief. I have been cleaning all morning. I absolutely needed a day to catch up on laundry, cleaning, and studying for my ACLS (Advanced Cardiovascular Life Support) recertification. Every two years I have to do that since I work in critical care.

Other than that, not much has changed! I am working 3-4 days a week. I am trying to work on myself and relaxation techniques. I have come to realize that I suffer from mild anxiety. I don't have major anxiety attacks or anything but I do "catastrophize" which is basically letting my mind spiral out of control, imagining worst case scenarios for anything that may come my way. It's not something that is severe enough to warrant medication, so I have been trying to exercise regularly, as well as make positive life changes to help myself. I have spent so much of my life worrying about the future, and I feel like I am finally taking care of myself and learning to be present and live in the moment. More on that in the future, I am sure :)

So life is going well for me. I am looking forward to lots of sunny, beach days. I am doing really well, and feel very happy and content with my life. I will try to be a bit better at updating this!!

Friday, January 22, 2016

two weeks (via iPhone)

Bare with me... I'm blogging from my phone! I have been so busy the last week... So busy in fact that I didn't blog, and I missed the official "two week" mark. It's been pretty uneventful. I do feel like time has slowed down though... Im ready for Ryan to come home now!!! It'll be soon though!

As I've said, I've been working extra shifts. It's keeping me busy and getting me out of the house. The house is spotless, may I add. When I'm home it's all about relaxing! I've been exercising on my elliptical at home, and I feel like I'm holding down the fort pretty well!

Also... I made a new friend!!! This is a huge deal for me, as I have had a lot of trouble meeting people in San Diego. My only friends have moved away, and it feels so good to have met someone new!! She works at the same hospital as me, and we met by chance a few weeks ago. It was so nice to go out with a girlfriend. We already made plans for future outings... So yay!!! I have one friend here now!

It's been CRAZY watching the news, as well as my friends' social media accounts to follow the snow storm in DC... I don't think I'll ever get used to the amazing weather here. When people post snow pictures it really makes me appreciate living here!! I wouldn't trade it for anything.

This weekend I will be doing what I usually do... Grocery shopping, beach walk, lifetime movies, and relaxing. I have another full week ahead of me. I'm working over 40 hours again. It'll finally feel worth it when these pay checks start coming in. Have a great weekend!

Thursday, January 14, 2016

one week

I have successfully made it through one week solo!!! The cat is still alive and I haven't missed work, so I think all is well. Actually we have been very productive at my house!! I deep cleaned our kitchen and living room and filled a huge box with stuff to get rid of. I love purging!! My poor husband is on the other side of the world begging me not to throw anything of his out... the kid has stuff from two moves ago, still in boxes. He doesn't even know what he has!! I am being respectful of his wishes... for now ;)

I have been working extra and will continue to do so for the next few weeks. It'll be nice when my paychecks start coming through. It is definitely tiring but it helps pass the time. I can't believe he has already been gone a week! I hope the next weeks pass just as quickly at this first one! I have been working out and cooking in addition to deep cleaning.  Keeping busy is the secret for sure.

I work tomorrow and will probably come home and watch lifetime movies... just being honest. This weekend will probably be another boring, but productive one! I know this post doesn't have much content but I wanted to check in and post a mini update to celebrate the "one week" milestone :)

Saturday, January 9, 2016

When He's Away

It has been 5 years since Ryan deployed... FIVE YEARS!!! I feel like that is unheard of in the military. The navy rotates sea duty and shore duty, so for 3 years he is on "sea duty" which means deployable, and then for 3 years he is on "shore duty" which means being at a non deployable command... but if you're a military spouse, you know there is no such thing as "non deployable." Many people deploy while on shore duty, but luckily Ryan did not. Couple that with the training he did last year, and you get 5 years of being in the US!

That is, until Thursday. But I cannot complain... his "deployment" is the shortest operation ever. I can't believe they are even sending him for as short as it is, but I am NOT complaining!! He has gone to training exercises for longer periods. However, communication is at a minimum, so that is a tiny adjustment but nothing I can't handle.

The first few days feel funny; I get sad because he is gone and I can't call him. Also, our cat got into toxic flowers not even 10 hours after he left. It was right before I had to leave for work. I had to bathe her alone, which is something that I've never done. She also had a hairball I had to clean (Ryan always does this). I am definitely missing him during these times! However, I honestly think having a pet has been super therapeutic. I do not feel alone. I am not in an empty bed at night. I remember feeling super lonely the first days of his previous deployments, but I haven't felt lonely at all. Also, I picked up extra shifts at work. I cannot imagine not working while he is gone! I would have to visit family or something. I am very grateful for my job and ability to pick up extra shifts to occupy my time!

I have a mini to-do list of things I want to organize and clean while he is gone. We are talking about moving from San Diego (where we currently live) to Camp Pendleton (where he is stationed) to help out his commute. It would make my commutes longer, but not by much. I work off hours when traffic isn't horrendous, so it won't be a hardship for me like it is for him. I will keep you posted... Have a great weekend!

Saturday, January 2, 2016


I officially feel like a Californian. After living here 18 months, we finally hiked the infamous "Potato Chip Rock" hike here in San Diego. We previously attempted it one other time, but due to park hours we couldn't finish the hike. Today we started earlier, and finally FINALLY completed it!

This hike has been on my radar since Ryan was stationed at Camp Pendleton in 2009. Due to deployments and our eventual PCS to DC, we didn't get to it. I didn't forget about it though! If you're in the San Diego/Camp Pendleton area I highly recommend it. It is an AMAZING workout. It was challenging but very satisfying to finish! I definitely recommend arriving early though to beat the crowd... we waited 90 minutes in a Disneyland style line to take our pictures. We considered skipping photos altogether but I insisted we get them!

We spent New Years Day in Pacific Beach. It was in the mid sixties, but we were bundled in North Face jackets, gloves, and hats. We laughed at ourselves... being from the east coast and midwest, we should be loving the weather here. It's funny how quickly we have acclimated to the weather here. We are officially "Californians" indeed!

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Post Holiday Recap

Christmas is over! I can't believe how fast it came and went. I'm one of those people who takes down the tree the day after Christmas. I know some people leave theirs up until mid January, but I am always ready to get my house back in order. I switch out to fall decor in September, so by this time I am ready to bring out my normal decorations.

We spent today vacuuming, dusting, rearranging storage items, and overall cleaning the house. I love the fresh feeling of a clean home! I also love my "plain" household items and decorations. I am simplistic and love the subtle but classy look to a home. It feels good to have it this way!

Don't get me wrong, we had a wonderful holiday season. It was just Ryan and I, and it was so relaxing. No fuss, just lots of movies, and sleeping in. We went to see Joy on Christmas day. I love the star studded cast and the movie did not disappoint. We also spent lots of time outdoors, and went for a long walk in Coronado. We are talking about buying a house (in like 5-10 years) so we were causally looking at houses in Point Loma. I clarify the 5-10 years though because we are adamant about not getting a "starter" home like many people do. It's a fine option and I understand why it works for some families, just not for us. We have been saving for 3 years for our house fund, but we want a huge downpayment when we find our "forever" home so it will be a few years. It's so fun to check out what is available now though!

Ryan has tomorrow off and I am crossing my fingers that I get cancelled at work... so far, no notice but a girl can dream right? I'm not complaining though because we get another long weekend together next weekend! AND it is our 6 year anniversary. We definitely had the most hurdles this year, but we overcame them and are stronger than ever.

Happy holidays to the blogger community!

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Long Weekends

Have I mentioned my work schedule? It's seriously the best. I got two part time jobs and self schedule at both of them, so I work when I want. I am so thankful to be in a profession that allows that type of flexibility. Anyway, I have scheduled long weekends for myself basically every weekend this month.

I've been busy, so I needed the time for planning. I hosted Thanksgiving, and helped with my sister in law's baby shower. This weekend was the first one in a while where I was off work, but had "me" time. This time is precious and healthy, and I need to make it more of a priority. Thursday, I went to Coronado and walked up and down the beach. I smelled the fresh air, and watched the sun glisten off of the ocean. I walked all the way from base to the Hotel Del Coronado. It was refreshing and beautiful. I love that walk, and have done it many times. I listened to Christmas music and reflected on how lucky we are to live in this area.

Yesterday was Ryan's work Christmas party... at Sea World! It was a nice change of pace than what I am used to for military festivities. We had a short and sweet ceremony and dinner, and then enjoyed the park with one of our good friends who is also in Ryan's battalion. He and Ryan served together 7 years ago when Ryan met me, so he's known us since the very beginning!

Today we have been relaxing... totally glorious. Relaxing to me includes cleaning and tidying the house though. I think my husband disagrees with that practice. We have plans to see Star Wars tomorrow, which I am looking forward to. It's been a wonderful weekend, and with the holidays coming up I know the next few weekends will be quite relaxing too!